Actually, this is really weird for me. Since I gave up video games for lent, I've realized how much time I wasted with them. Actually, no. That's not true. I've noticed how much time I sit in front of my computer waiting for the end of lent so I'll allow myself to play video games. I sit there trying to figure out what to do, and then end up doing nothing useful.
Now as lent comes to a close, I actually sort of fear the end of lent. Instead of feeling as though I'd be free to play video games. I feel as though I'd be entering into a form of imprisonment. I really just wonder if I can go back to normal life and not overdo video games after lent.
Of course, the first three weeks I didn't even play video games on Sunday though I could have. More recently though, in an attempt to make another sort of change in my life, I've tried to quit studying on Sunday and just enjoy God's day of rest. So, this last Sunday I probably played video games for about eight hours and watched at least three if not four movies. It seems contradictory to me too.
And because of all this time freed by not doing video games, I wonder why I can't seem to focus this semester. Before it was never an issue. I'd study and study and study based on whatever I needed to do well on. Then I'd just go home and sleep or do my own thing. This semester though, I have senioritis, I guess. However, a large part of it is that I've realized a lot of things this semester and have become disillusioned. It's probably because I have to take a huge step out into the world in the near future and I'm over thinking things again.
Go and Set the World Ablaze
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